February 2012
1 post
January 2012
1 post
I watch a lot of things. Tv shows, movies, and youtube videos consume my time..along with tumblr. And I do it because I enjoy it. But a part of me thinks I do it so I don’t have to think or worry about anything else.
December 2011
1 post
I don’t blame him for leaving. I’m not okay nor am I happy. And I understand that it’s difficult. And that’s why I don’t think anyone should like me. Because it’s always there. The heavy sadness behind the lightweight happiness.
November 2011
1 post
Just had a fight with my mom.
It was about a job. I didn’t want to do a resume or go out job hunting. She called me lazy. She asked me what else I would be doing (probably going on the computer). She said I was addicted to it, the computer I mean.
She’s wrong. She doesn’t know she is. She says I’m in denial.
Truth is I fear rejection. I fear that I won’t be adequate enough for anywhere. That...
October 2011
4 posts
The thing is...
I knew we would kiss. I knew from the minute we were left alone. I knew from the minute we started talking that night that I would. The minute the banter that we’ve done so many times that we’ve perfected it came into play. The minute I gave you shit for what you did to me last time. The minute you apologized. The minute when I accepted that apology with a hug. Feeling your arms wrap...
I still love him
And I think I always will. I know it sounds stupid and cheesy and the usual response is an eyeroll and a “Yeah, they all say that.” But it’s the truth. It’s coming up to a year since we’ve not been together and I still find tears. Tears when you’re too kind, when you seem like you might still like me, at the possiblilty, at the realization that it’s not...
I'm going to go look at another cegep today.
It’s really scary doing this. I have absolutely no idea what I want to do with my life. I have no idea how to make life decisions.. including which cegep I would like to attend. I’ll have to make up my mind at some point but it’s quite terrifying. It’s like I will go up to the building, take one look at it, and then my instinct will tell me that I should turn around and...
So hello. I should probably do an introductory post despite no one following me. Someone might one day. You never know. So I’m Shannon. I have a lot of interests and sometimes too many issues. I’ll talk about them here because… sometimes I have no one to talk to about these sort of things or I feel I will be talking about myself too much. But this is a blog, so talking about...